I know I haven’t posted in quite some time and for that I apologize. Back at the beginning of April I was on a roll, posting almost every day. I really enjoyed it. Then a comment was made that really bothered me, about the fact that it was obvious that I didn’t have much going on in my life since I was able to write so much. For those of you who missed it, I was laid off in January. You can read about it here. I thought I was handling it all with grace, if I do say so myself, until about two months ago, and then the reality of it all hit me like a ton of bricks. When you’ve built your life around being a professional and having a career, however frustrating that career may be, and then it gets yanked away from you, suddenly it feels as if the bottom fell out. And when that comment was made I didn’t realize that it would bother me so much, but it was like pouring salt into an open wound.
So I stopped writing. Not just because of what was said, but because I let it get under my skin. It made me think too much, and the negative thoughts just kept piling on top of each other in my mind. But truth be told, I DID have a lot going on. I was completing my master’s degree. I was continuing my job search (which finally paid off – I start a new job, IN THE FORENSICS FIELD, in less than two weeks!!!), and I was taking on odd jobs in the meantime. But in my day to day sadness none of that mattered. I felt like a failure. Maybe some of you out there know what I’m talking about or are going through it yourselves right now. It sucks, doesn’t it? Even with the massive amount of people dealing with this issue, it’s a VERY lonely place to be.
Things are slowly turning around. I graduate soon. I will be starting a new job. I have other exciting things coming up. I’m beginning to pull myself up by the bootstraps, but it ain’t easy. Like one of my good friends told me, it’s hard to get out of a funk. I have good and bad days. But I can’t let it keep me from the things I care about, like writing about the issues that matter to me. So I’ve decided I want to get back to it! Rather than just thinking about doing it, I’m starting right now. I will be posting on this blog once a week for the rest of 2011. More if I can manage. It’s a challenge, but I’m up for it. The topics that I write about need exposure. The more awareness I can spread, the more excitement I can generate, the more of a difference we can all make. I hope you will continue to follow along with me, and feel free to write or make comments. I see great things coming in the future – not just for me but for forensics and the amazing things this science can achieve.
Stay tuned – it will be a fun ride. I will also be publishing guest posts by others in the near future; a fantastic aspect of this that I didn’t anticipate! And for anyone else in the same boat that I am, stay focused, stay strong, believe in yourself, and try to ignore the negative (especially when it comes from yourself).