Monthly Archives: March 2012

Not Older, Just Better…

No matter how you tell yourself

It’s what we all go through

Those eyes are pretty hard to take

When they’re staring back at you…

 – Bonnie Raitt, Nick of Time

Click the play button below to sing along! :

I’m digressing from the normal themes here for today.

It’s been a crazy, unpredictable thirty-something years. Like a roller-coaster careening out of control. My past two birthdays have been extremely hard, with a lot of pensive, morose thoughts, regrets about things in the past and fear of a dwindling future. I don’t know if that’s part of a so-called mid-life crisis or just the cranky, Maxine-like old lady version of me that sits on my shoulder and shouts rude things in my ear (for more curmudgeonly thoughts, see my post: Bodies of Work, Plastic Flowers, and the Bitch on Your Shoulder).

Personal revelation alert: my biggest fear is running out of time. Time to accomplish career goals, time to try new foods, time to learn, time to pursue passions and hobbies, time for the bucket list, time to get my pilot’s license, time to read ALL of Hemingway’s books, time to spoil my dog, time to see the world and get back to Africa, time to appreciate family and friends, time to be the voice for those that cannot speak…

With each birthday I feel my biggest fear materializing. Time is my nemesis, always hiding in a bush just outside my door, laughing quietly, waiting to pounce when I least expect it, no matter how organized and focused I may think I am (as in this post from last year: When Life Kicks You in the Ass).

When did the choices get so hard?

With so much more at stake

Life gets mighty precious

When there’s less of it to waste

– Bonnie Raitt, Nick of Time

But this year’s birthday came and went without incident. You know what? I had fun. I actually didn’t mind it, beyond the normal fretting about age and mild panic about my wasted twenties and rushing to make up for them. Maybe it’s the beginning of an acceptance of who I am and where I’ve been. Or a teensy bit of maturity. Or… a new optimism?? (Gasps, clutches chest in horror)

Whew. Happy thought passed. Thank god that’s over. Back to normal.

In any case, I kept the wolves of time that crouch in my head at bay this year. But I know they’re still there. They’ll always keep me uncomfortably aware. But that may be a good thing, in a way (there’s that disgusting optimism-thing again).

For now, I will enjoy the rest of the roller-coaster, hands in the air, screaming all the way  🙂

Happy birthday to me.

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Calling All Veterinarians and Vet Techs!

 

My apologies for the long hiatus; 2012 came in with a bang and has proven to be a very busy year so far! The months of January and February were hectic, preparing for the American Academy of Forensic Science’s  (AAFS) Annual Meeting in Atlanta, GA, where I was priveledged to present research that I had been working on for some time (much more on the conference later!).

The AAFS conference was an amazing experience for this budding forensic scientist, and I truly encourage anyone out there considering a career in this field or already working in it to attend the next one. I met many talented and established professionals, and saw a great deal of inspiring research. But the highlight for me came in the middle of the week, when the “general” section of the Academy (see their website for a breakdown of their sections based on forensic specialty) to which I belong took a unanimous vote to recognize veterinary forensics as a discipline under their auspice!

What does this mean? It signifies the recognition of the importance of forensics in veterinary/animal practices, and opens the door to research. It allows for support of those working in animal professions and encourages collaboration among forensic professionals. In short, it’s HUGE, and I was honored to be there to see it happen!

So the AAFS in encouraging all members of the veterinary community to apply for membership! The organization is a fantastic opportunity to learn, grow, meet other professionals, and gain recognition and awards. I recommend it to everyone, especially those in the animal community. Let’s work together to strengthen this field of forensic science!

Follow the link below to read the AAFS letter to veterinary staff interested in membership:

http://www.aafs.org/forensic-veterinarians-are-encouraged-apply-membership

I thank the AAFS for supporting our work and vision!